Restarting Our Lives

I haven’t written in a while.  We have been changing the condo around a little and getting used to having the house to ourselves.  It is a weird feeling.  Having taken care of Mother for ten years, being on our own is a new concept.  It takes getting used to not to listen for her call or talk in whispers, not to tiptoe around and having the freedom to come and go as we please.

One of the things we have done is to get a new computer.  This one is an all in one with Windows 8.  I have not yet gotten used to the feel of it and how to get from here to there on it.  I had to refresh the whole system last night.  I did “something” and my screens were all messed up.  I would try really hard not to do it again if I only knew what I did to cause it.  We put the one I was using in Howard’s study.  He is trying to get used to Windows 7.  I guess we both have a lot of learning to do.

Mother’s room has been converted into a sewing room/music room.  I have not had my keyboard in a place where it could be used in quite some time.  As I have written about before, I had to stop playing piano at church because my eyes do not always focus and my hands do not always go where I am telling them to.  Now, I can just play for my own enjoyment and not have to worry about messing up things for others.  It is a nice feeling to play at my leisure with no pressure.

I am also excited to be able to sew again.  When the kids were little, I sewed most of their clothes and many of mine.  I have sewed some over the years since, but work and taking care of other things caused sewing to be put on the back burner.  I have missed it.

Howard bought a desk for his study.  He was using an old desk that was very small.  This new one is really nice and he has room for his computer, space to write notes and pay bills and space to be able to lay things out to look at that he needs to for keeping up with finances and other things.  I am excited for him and hope that he will enjoy it as much as I think he will.

I guess that we are in a stage of change.  Our entire lives are making a huge change and it takes some getting accustomed to.  We have to keep up with Mother’s appointments still, but she is not here to argue about them.  We have to travel 35 miles to see her, but it is fine with us.  We can visit friends and family and have them visit us with no interference from Mother.  It is so nice to have this freedom, but scary at the same time.  I pray we learn to use our time well and not waste it.  It has been a long time coming……….