Emotional Roller Coaster

The doctor is putting me on Wellbutrin.  I am supposed to start it today.  Some of the side effects listed include: drowsiness, excitement, dry mouth, dizziness, headache, nausea, vomiting, uncontrollable shaking of a part of the body, weight loss, constipation, excessive sweating.  Let me see, I already have drowsiness, dry mouth, dizziness, headaches, uncontrollable shaking, constipation and excessive sweating.  So how do I know if the medicine will cause this or not??!!  I could use the weight loss and excitement!

I also have a problem with the cost.  My doc prescribed a medicine for me once that cost almost $600.00.  I nearly had a heart attack when the pharmacy told me the price.  My husband insisted on getting it to see if it might help, but I ended up not being able to take it and it is sitting on a shelf unused.  I hope this will not be the case with this medicine.  The doc said it would be around $4.00 and it is $54.00.

I know that, to some, this does not seem like a lot of money.  It isn’t in one way, but if I cannot take it, and it sits on the shelf with the other one, it is a LOT of money.  We don’t have money to just throw away on every little thing the doctor wants to try.  It makes me very upset to spend money on me that is wasted.

My husband, on the other hand, is all for anything that might help.  He says that he would drain our savings dry if there was something out there to help me.  I love him for this, but it really makes me uneasy to think I would be the cause of us draining our account.  I hope we have some years left and want to be able to do some of the things we have dreamed of doing without a financial strain.

I know that many of you are in this same boat.  I hope that when my disability hearing finally is, I will get some money and Medicare.  The Medicare is my goal to help with these costs of drugs.  It would be so nice not to have to worry about these things and feel like I could try some more things and hopefully find something that eases some of the symptoms I have.  It would not only help me, but my husband and our friends and families.

Only time will tell what the medication will do……………..and what, if any, help I will receive from disability……….I will just ride this thing out and hope that it comes out positive………..I guess I will go buy another ticket and see where this journey takes me…………..