According to an old legend,
every time we lose someone or something we cherish, a new teardrop is placed in
our heart. A teardrop can be placed
there for a person, an animal, a place, a thing or whatever we cherish. When our heart fills up, God has compassion
on us and we leave earth for Heaven to be rejoined with whatever we have
cherished.
Although I am an only child, I
was blessed with a lot of aunts, uncles and cousins. I have a large, loving family that means so
much to me. We only have one aunt living
now, but I have a lot of wonderful cousins that are very special to me and we
have yet to lose one of them.
Unfortunately, we are all
getting older. It is only a matter of
time before we lose one. I am afraid it
will be soon. My cousin, Billy, is very sick and under hospice care. Although he could outlive all of us, it is
very unlikely. Another of my cousins sent a recent picture of him to the rest
of us. My heart broke seeing how sickly
and pitiful he looks. It is hard to
watch as someone we love suffers.
As the old legend says, it is
not only people who put a tear in our hearts.
Most of us have many tears from our beloved pets we have lost over the
years. Many have tears from homes, land,
trees and such they have had to leave. Those
of us with chronic diseases have a tear in our hearts for a lot of
reasons. For one, we miss our lives as
they once were.
All of us age and expect to go
through changes as we adjust to more aches and pains and difficulty doing the
things we once did. With MS, these
changes come on rapidly and forcefully.
We do not have a chance to adjust to one before it throws something else
on us. We have tears for walking,
thinking, talking, writing, etc. It
causes many tears to fall into our hearts to join the ones that are already
there.
Although I am already grieving
my beautiful cousin, I know that he is saved and will be in Heaven with the
part of our family that is already there.
In many ways, I envy him that reunion and hope that we will all be there
one day soon. No, I do not want to die or hurry along that process. I am not in a depression. I just know that being in Heaven beats being
on earth in so many ways and there is joy in dying as well as the joys of
living.
At least in Heaven there is no more
MS, leaving friends, having friends, pets and other things leave us, and
.........the best part ... no more tears!!!
2 comments:
This is such a poignant and thought-provoking post. I have no more aunts or uncles; my mother is the last of that generation. Two of my oldest cousins have already died, and my brother died when he was young. So part of my own generation is gone, too. I believe the same as you -- the better place will be heaven (hope I'm good enough to get in!) I'm not afraid of dying, but I prefer to live a little longer here before I start the next life. Thanks for a nice post.
Peace,
Muff
I am sure, since it doesn't look like we will meet on earth, we will meet in Heaven!!! Thank you for the sweet comment. I guess my heart is just heavy at the thought of losing more of my family, especially since we are the "young-uns" of the group! Take care!
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